To be entirely honest, I've been stuck in a designer's block for a very long time.
My hands are not working in sync with my brain. And my brain is almost blank.
And since my last flea market attempt for MerrowDream, I have been stuck thinking about how to revamp. I had this grand idea of making MerrowDream a fabric accessories shop. But reality hit me hard. Most consumers can't appreciate the quality materials I use. My products aren't unique enough. My stuff aren't attractive and cheap enough. Blah Blah Blah. I learnt so much from just one flea. I know I had to revamp.
But do what?
I'm stuck honestly. I had countless ideas flashing through my mind initially(more than a month ago). But I have countless more reasons to shoot them down. I now understand why some creative people say we are our own enemy. We seek for a perfection that cannot be achieved. The expectations I set for myself are unattainably high.
And to be entirely honest, I'm overly ambitious in wanting to try EVERYTHING. There seem to be an endless stretch to the list of things I want to try to do. Anything related to creative DIY - I want to try. But there is only so much time that I have.
Work is slowly eating me up. It's slowly stripping off my adrenaline push to achieve, achieve and achieve. I began to sink in to the repetitive daily cycles of waking up at 7.30, going to work, have my lunch, continue to work, end work at 6 or work some overtime, go home, eat dinner, rest and then sleep. And the next day the cycle repeats.
Where is the motivated and driven Ariel? I'm not just stuck in a block (my creative juices are not flowing), I'm beginning to lose myself.
I need to get away and find myself once more.
